It's strange watching in real time as 10 years of the story of my life is completely rewritten by someone. From flawed, messy, and human with many moments of joy and beauty into something of unrelenting horror. To watch myself be written into a movie villain.
And I spend my life mostly keeping to myself. Quietly wandering through, trying not to make waves. So their retelling becomes the truth people hear, while I'm left to grieve for the collective reality we've lost. To grieve for my pain at their hands which is flipped on its head.
Alas. At least I get to live with the memories of my version of reality, with all its joys and learning that made me into the person I am today. A person I'm proud of and happy to embark upon the rest of my life as.
Tell me why you decide where and when
'Cause I'll oblige, take the blame like I do
Watch me cry and let me keep loving you
Coward, liar
I can't look you in the eye without
Seeing something you don't wanna talk about
...
It's me, it's you
We're dancing 'round the truth
I bite my tongue
The only way out is through
Sick with secrets
How bad could it get?
We're here again